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30 things you might or might not know about me..
1. i love and care about my friends more than i care about myself.
2. im extremely jealous.
3. i crave attention.
4. i want to be a mother more than anything in the world.
5. my boyfriend makes me laugh and he makes me feel special.
6. writing used to come easy to me but now it takes an effort that i am too lazy to exert.
7. i think im too fat but i refuse to stop eating the things i love to eat.
8. if i could do one thing for everyone in the world it would be to make everyone smile.
9. i like to pretend im a ballerina and i dance around the house when no one is home.
10. i think that old music is the best and i am disgusted by most new music.
11. i can be incredibly sarcastic.
12. im not very romantic.
13. i like to make things for people as gifts because i feel that it means more to make than to buy.
14. sometimes i feel like i care about certain people more than they care about me.
15. if i had the chance, i would give myself blue eyes.
16. my ulitmate dream life is to be an author, with a house in the US and another one some place in italy.
17. i have always wanted to go to italy.
18. i am in awe of god's creation, always.
19. im afraid of clowns.
20. i want to have 4 children and i want to adopt more when my own kids grow up.
21. i think that all children should be exposed to disney and legos.
22. i still play with kids toys and miss my old barbies.
23. i love eyeshadow.
24. i dont know what i want to be when i grow up.
25. watching "fox and the hound" makes me cry.
26. my boyfriend calls me 'polka dot.'
27. im afraid that im going to lose my friends after high school.
28. im afraid that im losing friends now.
29. i cant stand all the "punk" nonsense going around.
30. i dotn think you cant look like a california surfer unless you really are a california surfer. and even then, the look is really played out
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[January 01, 2005 @ 01:07 am] |
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today is the first day of the rest of my life..
it starts 2005, the year that ends it all, or at least, ends the life i have known....i was watching the ball drop and i realized that ive been waiting all my life for this year and here it is...what do i look foward to now? ever since i found out that my graduating class would be 2005, my plans went up to there...june 2005 is the last month on my mental calendar..what happens next? i dont know if im afraid or excited about what is going to come...all i know is its all happening so fast..
2005?
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[August 21, 2004 @ 12:55 pm] |
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...we're not going to gradnight!!!!!!!!!!! i almost cried at the meeting...ive grown up wanting that my entire life...:( we're going to gradbash or whatever...man....and probly we dont have to dress nice for that since its not disney....gosh...i was soooo looking foward to gradnight and disney...it sucks so much :(..no mickey mouse grad hat for me......thats what sucks the most about this year...im not gonna have that to look foward to....that staple of senior year is gone for me and now its really gay :(...
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[August 16, 2004 @ 03:54 pm] |
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OMG!!! im a SeEeEeEeNiIiIiIoOoOoOrRrRrR!!!!!!!!!!
first period- honors phsyics with THE RUSSIAN! lol.."hello comrades"...damn i wish he wouldve said that...but he didnt...he seems pretty cool...ive got alejandro, karl, pierre, marly, gabriella, liz r., ailyn, arse, and a coupla other people i know which is straiiight...
second period- ap human geography with PEEEHH-NNOOO!! lol OMG HES SO STUPID! LMAO he was wearing an american flag bandana on his head and some flag shorts over his pants..he looked like an idiot...haha..but hes cool and the class is packed with peeps i know....ailyn, marly, gabriella, jessica, laura, danny, alexis, pacheco+1 lol, um gaby, jackie....gosh i cant remember urryone...ill try to pay more attention tmw
third period- teachers aide...????? dunno who im gonna be assigned to but i hope im gonna be a library aide cause thatd be SOOOOO STRAIGHT! lol..
fourth period- ap govt & eco with PEEEHH-NNOOOO! lol..stupid outfit again lol...um i know urrybody in that class...EWWW JESSICA IS IN IT!! yuuuuckk lol..
lunchhhhh- urrybody from last year except luis :( :( :( :(...hes gonna get a schedule change just to have lunch with the crReW...lol
fifth period- stats...sechristttttt lol....um...nabeel, umer, pierre, huoung!!, deborah, steve, alex smith, and some other people i dunno lol..not a big class...17 of us i think? pretty straight..
sixth period- ap english comp....with simpson...she looks cool..shes REALLLLLY white lol....ive got KATIE IN THERE!!! YAYYYY happy happy joy joy....jon, nabeel, pierre, danny, tatiana, linda, katie, candy, venessa, uric, huoung, aghh everyone! lol..:D
senior year is shaping up to be SOOOOO COOL! i cant wait...class of 05 officers made a bunch of little pin-things with our names on them and SENIORS!! on them....which was so awesome and you could pick out the seniors...lol SOOO COOL! im so excited..
i felt so confident today too..like i didnt have to walk around with my head down or anything..IM TOP DAWG! lol
ahh well i gotta read for perno lol SEEEEENIIIOOOORRSSSSS (lol i cant wait for the announcements to come on to just go crazy like WOOOOT!! SENIORS!!)
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[August 13, 2004 @ 02:51 pm] |
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wow..only 2 more days till im walking into school as a senior..SOOO scary!
pierres back from alaska!! he hasnt seen my hurr yet tho..so lets see how he reacts...the hurricane doesnt seem to be coming this way but everyones still kinda on edge about it...i hope it passes before school starts cause thatd be really bad if it came on the first day :(..
sooo hmm..theres nothing new with me..i had to clean the bathroom a little while ago ::barfs:: i hate the smell of soft scrub and mr.clean...ugh...im allergic but nooooooo i still have to do it...:(..ive got my school schedule already...I CANT WAIT!!
1st honors physics
2nd ap human geography
3rd teachers aide
4th ap govt/economics
5th ap stats
6th ap english comp
ive already got myself situated and i know the routes ima take..its gonna be fun...HOPEFULLY i have lunch with my friends cause that would suck so much...
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[August 01, 2004 @ 12:15 am] |
im sitting here all quiet..you know how we do...just jiving for sho
yesterday i went and saw "the village" with jon ozzy jen heather and marly...it was fun..i sat between ozzy and marly and exchanged a few comments with both of them throughout the movie which was funny...
""but ive got the magic rocks!""
"psst, she meant cocaine" haha
luis called me today to check up on me and to tell me it went well with the girl..lol...he asked if the group had gone out and i told him that we went to the movies and he was like "youre cheating on me"...lol...funny stuff
stef has gone on this disney song downloading spree...OMG i want school to start...
tania's dad died friday..at least hes not in pain anymore....the bad thing (which is really superficial and materialistic, but i dont mean it in a bad way...) is that we cant leave to the beach till monday...we were supposed to be there today...but since the funeral/burial is tmw my parents decided that we should just stay down here and whatever...so yeah...i have a feeling we might not even go...but thats just me
it sucks...this summer has been alllll about EVERYONE else...we have been stuck inside our house for the whole summer..and if we havent been at home we were tending to someone elses needs....and i know its selfish and stuff to want something in return from people, but it feels that way sometimes...everyone else, EVERYONE ELSE would LEAVE on their vacation the day they originally meant to leave..but we dont...we feel guilty...no one feels guilty asking us for favors...no one feels guilty that there are THREE KIDS IN THIS HOUSE who have had the CRAPPIEST summer of their lives...no body cares at all..because why? because we solved their problems...who gives a crap what happens with us...we already did what they wanted and thats it...
i was supposed to get PAID for taking care of simon...am i??? NO...because in tia's mind...ABUELO is the one taking care of simon in her eyes...its soooooooo not fair that me sam and stef are the ones dealing with him and its as if we arent doing anything...
whatever im done venting
lol thanks eric :)
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[July 30, 2004 @ 12:00 am] |
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i consider myself an honest person, someone who speaks her mind when it needs to be spoken, and one who stays true to her convictions no matter what the opposing side has to say...
who are you? do i know you? i feel like im staring into a mirror when i look at you...we as humans tend to point out the flaws in other people that we ourselves possess...
and i want to apologize for all of my judgements..for all of my negative thoughts...i want to apologize to all of those that ive hurt in some way, and i hope that i can make it up to you...i want to apologize for not being there if you have ever needed me...i apologize for anything wrong i have ever said to any of you...i apologize for betraying your trust at some points...im sorry for everything
and if you dont understand why im apologizing, im not sorry, cause that means i must have not messed up with you yet...lol jk...
i mean it when i say that i love and appreciate my friends...i am so lucky to have them...i am lucky to not have the need to hate anyone, and i hope that this is apparent in me with all i do...
i want to show you that i am who i say i am....im going to try my hardest, and if i mess up, please give me a chance
thanks
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[July 29, 2004 @ 07:52 pm] |
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my kiss is like, wo
so yeah...i cut my hurr today...its REALLYYYYyyy cute...and i gots two new icons...lol...ones for posting comments and ones the default.....hih-lair-ee-us
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[July 28, 2004 @ 04:24 pm] |
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1) Last dream: the one where my shoulder and boob and knees swelled up and had to be operated
2) Last car ride: yesterday to and from west palm beach
3) Last kiss: like 2 weeks ago
4) Last person you kissed: pierre
5) Last good cry: a few days ago..
6) Last Missing Library Book: The Power Of the Wind in 2nd grade
7) Last movie seen: eh...catwoman
8. Last Book Read: goodnight kiss by r.l. stine
9) Last curse word uttered: uh..probably "yeah" or something
10) Last beverage drank: water
11) Last Food consumed: ice cream
12) Last Crush: luis :/
13) Last phone call: from mom like 30 mins ago
14) Last TV show watched: um...i love the 80s strikes back
15) Last Item Bought: um...m&ms
16) Last time showered: last night
17) Last shoes worn: black flip flops
18. Last CD played: 90s dance mix
19) Last MP3 Downloaded: never dled one before
20) Last annoyance: my thoughts
21) Last disappointment: myself
22) Last soda drank: some sprite accidentally about 5 months ago...yee-uck
23) Last thing written: in my diary last night
24) Last key used: "t"
25) Last word spoken: sorry bye
26) Last trip to the bathroom: about an hour ago
27) Last sleep: last night
28. Last IM: luis
29) Last song you listened to: pump up the jam- technotronic
30) Last time you yelled at someone: uh at sam 5minutes ago
31) Last weird encounter: dunno..
32) Last Store Shopped at: .....publix?
33) Last ice cream eaten: vanilla with chocolate on top
34) Last time amused: yesterday when jon luis and eric called me
35) Last time wanting to die: cant say..
36) Last time in love: ....
37) Last time hugged: yesterday when i was leaving west palm
3 Last time kissed on the cheek?: this morning
39) Last time humped: um never...?
40) Last time scolded: um...my grandma saying my skirt was too short lol
41) Last time resentful: probly thinking about luis..
42) Last chair sat in: this one
43) Last lipstick used: some orange one there for fun lol
44) Last underwear worn: ::checks:: flowered print :)
45) Last bra worn: none today lol
46) Last shirt worn: my i love ny shirt
47) Last class attended: haaaaah i dunno
48. Last Final taken: chem was my last final
49) Last time dancing: its been a while :(
50) Last poster looked at: the josh ones on my wall
51) Last concert attended: pillar/chosen x
52) Last webpage visited: the josh board
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[July 26, 2004 @ 01:54 pm] |
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just when i was feeling better...
i get depressed again
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[July 26, 2004 @ 12:03 pm] |
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wanna know a secret?
im cat woman....::hiss:: lol
i saw catwoman last night with jon heather ozzy jen and eric...it was fun, i guess...being in the movies without someone to cuddle with SUCKS...and i think i was annoying jon with all my comments :( i busted my butt sitting outside of a cigar store...that was funny...when i got home i talked to luis for a bit but i had to go to sleep at 12 because mom didnt want for us to stay up late...
i had the weirdest dream...i developed some sort of problem that made both my knees and my right shoulder and right boob swell and hurt alot...there would be times when i actually thought the dream was real...so i had to get it operated which was really scary..while i was at the hospital signing in or whatever, my cell rings and its luis calling to hang out...i tell him that im in the hospital to get some surgery and he freaks out...the next thing i know he, jon, eric, ingrid and some blond dude there show up and go up with me to the room..then its time for the nurse to wheel me away to surgery and all of a sudden my family is in the room too..my mom was really really quiet and my dad was crying..so i start crying cause im scared of being put under the knife and crap so the nurse wheels me away and the pain gets stronger...when they put the mask on me to go to sleep, i thougt i saw pierre and then it went blank for a few seconds...i guess its time to flash foward to when im recovered...ive got these weird things around my knees and on the right side of my torso and ive learned to write with my left hand, since i cant use my right arm....im in some class and the teachers droning on and on and im taking notes...then my grandfather shows up with two bags..one bag is filled with bread and the other one is rice and beans i think...so im in class eating the rice slowly cause it kinda hurts to chew and then i get the bread bag and start eating it....then thats when the dream ended...
it was really weird and its suprising that i can remember so many details of it...really strange...
oh well...im off to have a not-so-groovy day
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[July 25, 2004 @ 04:11 pm] |
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i saw dania today!!! SHE HAS LONGER HAIR THAN MEEEE
we went to frc together and went to youth service...she seems to have liked it so thats nice....i miss her so much :(...i wish she was still here in miami and wouldve experienced high school with all of us..
:pump up the jam pump it up lol this puts me in the mood to watch space jam lmao...
ive been soooo bored lately its driving me insane..
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[July 24, 2004 @ 10:48 pm] |
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death to pooh x.x
so my day today was relatively interesting..NOOOTTTT
i went to my tia&tio's house to paint the babyroom...not fun...they picked "classic" winnie the pooh as their theme and BLAH ive never hated winnie, but i do now..we got there at like 11:30, 30mins after i WOKE UP..
[[pierre called from alaska last night at 1am..to tell me he had gotten there safely and all that good stuff]]
im MAJORLY pms-y...im all sad/irritated....its not fun at all and i hate it when im like this..i just hate that this summer has been so boring and yeah...it sucks :(
i miss hanging out with my friends..
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[July 24, 2004 @ 10:42 pm] |
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my new journal...
oohhh yeeahhh
thanks jessica!
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[June 24, 2004 @ 10:40 pm] |
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i am jessica.
i am the best.
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